Looking, lonely - no family

I have been a Caregiver for 25 years , now seperated from mylate ex-Wife ,my Family are all deceased Late Brother, Late Mother and Late Father - I was able to keep them in the Family Home, where they wanted to be for their last years . I have almost forgotten how to enjoy myself ( having been their Caregiver for 25 years and also am dealing with chronic pain & PTSD allied with a moderate disability due to job related injuries, Traumatic Brain Injuries & the effects of Medical Misadventure(s) from Medical Professionals mistakes- far too many ! I enjoy soft sensual massage , which gives me some limited relief from my pain . - after Medical Misadventure, I can still come. I would like to try Frottage . I am totally shaven. I am currently evaluating and re--assessing my entire sexual outlook and opinions - I am in a time of flux . In these uncertain and screwed up times , where nothing is constant and everything seems to be a constant of change, nothing remains the same forever . I hate the world that has allowed this Covid endemic into it and cast a curse onto life/freedom as we know it - I will not pass my opinion further than to say that there are those I wish Karma on bigtime for it - nuff said . Our relatively settled and peaceful world is no more , unfortunately and sadly . Take care out there . I am double-vaxxed , DDF , am clean , discrete and have a GSOH ( without a sense of humour we are stuffed !) I am a very compassionate, caring person LOL.
My interests include travelling, computers, motorcycles and m/cycle racing . I have been the victim of Medical Misadventures ( several!),Tragedies ,was Overdosed on Morphine Medically, suffered Severe Opiode Narcosis, Traumatic Brain Injuries, Multiple Organ Failures and am battling with ACC over my claim . I hate ACC, their Management/Policies ( prior to 2023) and Insurance Organisations with some vitriol and regard it as my life' work to inform Kiwi's of how badly & brutaly the Public are treated by ACC.| I CAN H