I am a straight man and the father of two. I have only dated women my entire life. Two years ago, my ex-girlfriend and I started exploring sexually. We used toys and dildos on both me and her, and I liked how it felt. We then met up with a gay couple, and I played with one of the guys. I enjoyed it.

I have a fantasy of being gangbanged by 4 to 8 guys. I have only been with one guy, and it was a very quick experience.

Can someone give me some advice on how to go about it? Should I start with fewer guys? The problem is that I don’t want this to become a regular thing—I just want it to be a one-off experience